I not hate you, I just scare you ~

我们到底发生什么事了？
我们曾经不是好朋友吗？
为什么现在我们见面好像中间隔着一片海呢？
我想你知道我在想什么～
我知道你觉得我很烦～
或许你也知道我喜欢上你了～
当时我也是以为是这样～
但是我们朋友当中有的情侣吵架后～
我发现原来我不是有这种感觉～
我想了很久终于有一个结论了～
因为我在家是最小的~
家人一直很照顾我～
当我去到那里时你也是很照顾我～
所以我才会不舍得有这种的照顾～
当时的我是好像弟弟少了一个姐姐的关心的伤心～
但是我也要谢谢你～
现在的我知道怎么样在那儿很我同学和室友变成更好的朋友～
我知道如果我问你“我有做错什么吗？”或者“你还在生我的气吗？”～
你一定会说没有～
但是你跟少闳说你不是跟我熟跟上次我在post骂我的前同学时，不久你就post一个也是在不爽某某人～
我知道你在骂我～
这两件事我就知道其实我有犯错而且你有在生我的气～
现在当我面对你的时候我会感觉到很尴尬很害怕～
很想挖一个洞钻进去～
我不知道有怎么样面对你～
可能你以为我在讨厌你～
小薇不知道我们发生了什么事～
但是她告诉我做人不要那么小气？
“小气”？现在是我做错事情，我怎么样小气哦～
可能我的性格是不会表达心理在想什么～
可能你觉得我这一遍都一直都在讲废话～
我知道我不可能改变什么～
希望你明白我的想法～
我知道我很烦～
可能距离是唯一的办法～

time fly ~ i 3rd sem already

just think back that i study my 1st sem in penang i boring until count still got how many years months days hours minutes seconds to go until me graduate~
just think back that i study 2nd sem in new place nilai , i need start from zero from all ~
friends,my brain GPS, where is my class ......
now i ready for 3rd sem , i still don't know what i going to study in this sem ~
my gpa result still same cannot over 2.5 ?
all only C the best also is B- only ?
can i make do an A grade project ?
can this sem my gpa over 3.5 ?
5 more sem to go ~
can i pass all subject ?
no retake or resit any subject ?

holiday of 2010 ~

i got around 40 days of holiday ~
start from end of November until 10th of January~
what i do in this holiday ?
hang out with some friend ~
go sing K~
go ate steamboat than go marina island ~
go astaka jogging  than pasar malam buy thing go to marina island and at there watching the sea and hear the music from the sea and ate thing ~
after that i rehearse my character until always crash time with the time my friend ask me to hang out~ 
haha this year i not act satan  anymore this time 180 degree turn ~
i act the leader of angel Gabriel~ 

1st time i hear the name i feel like this name like very cool ~
thank to my wing designer help me make an angel wing very beautiful and very cool ~
and my designer is miss Deborah ~
  

well me now only wait for 10th of jan of my 3rd semester ~
hope i can take some subject that i interest~