上帝早就安排好了？

如果你是我电影中的女主角～
我只能感谢上帝～
原来在我第一天认识上帝～
已经把她安排在我身边～
但是我因失败了几次～
没有那个勇气～
以为我失去自信～
reckless faith 可以帮助我吗？
但是我还是会感谢上帝～

5th Sem ~

CSC2100 Object Oriented Programming
java oh java ~ the one and only one subject that i fail and retake ~
hope i can pass this time ~
CSC2102 Fundamentals Of networking ~
how you computer connect to internet ?
who hosting internet ?
IP? TCPIP ?
learn from here ~
CSC2107 E-commerce ~
Miss Leow Fui Theng ~
i know i will do many many many many many many thing for my project ~
and know how and what is online buy and sell happen ~
CSC2014 Computer Ethics ~
Ethics ?
don't use all BIG WORD?
tag ppl on facebook need to ask ppl approve ?
STA2104 Quantitative Methods
Math math ~
Statistics ~
headache XD~

Really hope i can handle it ~
god bless me Plz ~

5th sem

this maybe is my 5th time for 1 day of the sem ~
i still a bit nerves ~
but not like the first time ~
T__T at bed XD~·

The Smile ~

I really really like your smile ~
but i am not the one whose make you smile ~
I think the best way is try to forget everything just remember how pretty is your smile ~
sorry that i **** you ~

My Heart

我的心在这里～
我的开心和伤心都在这里～
我的爱与恨也在这里～
你也是在这里～
只不过不知道是在爱还是恨的领域～
我在你心中是什么位置呢？

Cold war ~

cold war also most one year ~
how i end it ?
or just let it be like this ?

Good luck ~

i wish that i can wish you good luck in you exam ~
but sorry i am a coward ~

sound

I don't hear music anymore~
My ears are tired of all the pictures in the words~
Cause you are in them...still~

my phone balance

i add up my maxis and digi balance can up to RM400 or maybe more ~
it don't mean good or happy to me ~
it just mean that my got very less friend that i can sms or call ~

我的电影～

总觉得自己一直客窜人家的电影～
永远不可能成为人家的电影的配角～
只会在他的电影出现一段时间过后就不会再看见我这个角色的出现～
可能会从主角口中提到我的名字～
但是我以不属于那个电影了～
可能在他的电影中客窜天使～
会在那一段时间帮助主角～
让自己会谢谢我这个角色～
在她的电影客窜恶魔～
在那一段时间做了对主角不好的时间～
让主角恨我这个角色～
可能我不会如何保持如何演好这个角色～
所以当不到人家电影的配角～

我的电影呢？
我也想当主角吖～
有多少人愿意但我的电影中的配角吗？
陪我演到最后一幕好吗？
这个电影也需要一位女主角～
有那个配角可以当女主角吗？
我的电影没有女主角会不好看吖～
我需要改多少次剧本才可以拍成一部好的电影呢？

Am i really belong to the dark side ?

Now i allow talk with cause ~
always use the words to hurt people feeling ~
am i happy to be like this ?
i don't know ~
but it make me feeling i not a weak ~
maybe hate is really my power of all ~
hate make me become ...... a real monster  ~

I not hate you, I just scare you ~

我们到底发生什么事了？
我们曾经不是好朋友吗？
为什么现在我们见面好像中间隔着一片海呢？
我想你知道我在想什么～
我知道你觉得我很烦～
或许你也知道我喜欢上你了～
当时我也是以为是这样～
但是我们朋友当中有的情侣吵架后～
我发现原来我不是有这种感觉～
我想了很久终于有一个结论了～
因为我在家是最小的~
家人一直很照顾我～
当我去到那里时你也是很照顾我～
所以我才会不舍得有这种的照顾～
当时的我是好像弟弟少了一个姐姐的关心的伤心～
但是我也要谢谢你～
现在的我知道怎么样在那儿很我同学和室友变成更好的朋友～
我知道如果我问你“我有做错什么吗？”或者“你还在生我的气吗？”～
你一定会说没有～
但是你跟少闳说你不是跟我熟跟上次我在post骂我的前同学时，不久你就post一个也是在不爽某某人～
我知道你在骂我～
这两件事我就知道其实我有犯错而且你有在生我的气～
现在当我面对你的时候我会感觉到很尴尬很害怕～
很想挖一个洞钻进去～
我不知道有怎么样面对你～
可能你以为我在讨厌你～
小薇不知道我们发生了什么事～
但是她告诉我做人不要那么小气？
“小气”？现在是我做错事情，我怎么样小气哦～
可能我的性格是不会表达心理在想什么～
可能你觉得我这一遍都一直都在讲废话～
我知道我不可能改变什么～
希望你明白我的想法～
我知道我很烦～
可能距离是唯一的办法～

time fly ~ i 3rd sem already

just think back that i study my 1st sem in penang i boring until count still got how many years months days hours minutes seconds to go until me graduate~
just think back that i study 2nd sem in new place nilai , i need start from zero from all ~
friends,my brain GPS, where is my class ......
now i ready for 3rd sem , i still don't know what i going to study in this sem ~
my gpa result still same cannot over 2.5 ?
all only C the best also is B- only ?
can i make do an A grade project ?
can this sem my gpa over 3.5 ?
5 more sem to go ~
can i pass all subject ?
no retake or resit any subject ?

holiday of 2010 ~

i got around 40 days of holiday ~
start from end of November until 10th of January~
what i do in this holiday ?
hang out with some friend ~
go sing K~
go ate steamboat than go marina island ~
go astaka jogging  than pasar malam buy thing go to marina island and at there watching the sea and hear the music from the sea and ate thing ~
after that i rehearse my character until always crash time with the time my friend ask me to hang out~ 
haha this year i not act satan  anymore this time 180 degree turn ~
i act the leader of angel Gabriel~ 

1st time i hear the name i feel like this name like very cool ~
thank to my wing designer help me make an angel wing very beautiful and very cool ~
and my designer is miss Deborah ~
  

well me now only wait for 10th of jan of my 3rd semester ~
hope i can take some subject that i interest~